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A Different Kind Of Light

by SWAN SONGS

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1.
IT HAS ALMOST BEEN 10 YEARS // BEEN HIDING MY VICES, BUT EVERY OTHER NIGHT // THEY’D COME BACK TO FIND ME AGAIN // I’VE BEEN TRASHING THIS CAN // LIKE ITS ONLY PURPOSE WAS TO SHOW OFF ITS DENTS // THAT I’VE BEEN COLLECTING ALL OVER THE YEARS // WELL, I DID A PRETTY GOOD JOB CAUSE I TOOK NO FUCKIN’ DAYS OFF // ON FINDING A REASON FOR THE REASON WHY THIS LIFE’S JUST A CLOZE // AND IN CASE YOU DIDN’T KNOW: ALL OF THIS HAS ALWAYS BEEN YOURS MOST PEOPLE DISAPPEAR // “WELL, IT’S ALWAYS BEEN THIS WAY” // YOU CAN HEAR HIM GRUNT // AT THE BACK OF THE BAR // SO LET’S BRING ON A TOAST TO THE FACT THAT WE’RE NOTHING MORE THAN DUST IN A SHED // THAT WILL BE DISPERSED WHEN THE DOORS SWING SHUT // WHEN THERE’LL BE NOTHING LEFT, BUT SAFETY PINS AND MARBLES // THAT YOU’VE BEEN TOO AFRAID TO GIVE AWAY // CAUSE YOU THOUGHT YOU’D HAVE TO KEEP ’EM A KEEPSAKE // FOR THE ONES WHO LEFT YOU TOTALLY FUCKED UP NOW IT HAS ALMOST BEEN 10 YEARS // WON’T EVER FORGIVE AND FORGET // I’M SORRY, BUT I’M JUST NOT BUILT FOR THIS SHIT
2.
I WANNA START FROM SCRATCH // RE-EVALUATE THE INSIDE OF MY FUCKIN’ HEAD // I WANNA RAT OUT ALL MY GODDAMN FRIENDS // AND THINK I’M DOING THE BEST I CAN, YEAH // I WANNA TEAR DOWN ALL THESE WALLS OR PAINT ’EM BLACK LIKE COAL MINE CANARIES WE’LL BE DEAD BEFORE WE KNOW IT // WE’RE ALL SUCKERS DOWN HERE // WHEN IT COMES TO BARSTOOL ENDGAMES // OXYMORONS ARE OUR HIDEAWAYS, YEAH // WE’RE PLAYING SAFE WHEN WE PLAY DEAD OH, THERE’S A DEUCE SITTING ON THE RIM // OF THIS EMPTY GLASS // SCREAMING OUT MY NAME // I GUESS THIS FUCKIN’ JOKE IS ON ME // WHERE’S YOUR GOD NOW AS HE DOESN’T SEEM TO CARE?
3.
THE ORPHANS STOPPED SINGING // JUST A WHISTLING THROUGH THE DUST AND THE SMOKE // THERE ARE NO CROWDS IN THE STREETS // NO SIGNS OF LIFE LEFT NO MORE // OH, THE FIELDS ARE ALL PARCHED NOW // DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS? // I PICKED UP THE DUST AND YOU COUNTED THE GRAINS // STILL WE DON’T KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS // MAYBE WE DON’T EVEN CARE // A STENCH OF PERFUME IN THE AIR THIS RUNS DEEPER THAN YOU THINK // DEEPER THAN A SEA TRENCH // YOU KNOW WE CAN BE ANYTHING BUT FRIENDS // AIN’T GOT OUR PROBLEMS SORTED OUT // STILL WE RUN OFF AT THE MOUTH // OH, THE HORROR: SO WELL THOUGHT OUT // A SCENT OF AMMONIA IN THE AIR // BREATHE IT IN // MASK IT OUT THERE’S A PATTERN TO THE SOUND // OF THE FALLING RAIN // A STRUCTURE IN THE WAY // HOW STARVING WOLVES BEHAVE // THERE’S A HOUSE ON FIRE // AND IT’S BURNING DOWN I’D LIKE TO BE MORE DRAMATIC // DON’T TELL ME THAT I AM // I’D LIKE TO BE MORE AESTHETIC // THAN WITH THIS CROOKED CHEST // THIS IS SOMETHING LIKE SELF-SABOTAGE // TO DISTRACT ME FROM WHAT IS ALL TOO REAL LIKE THE EXCUSES WE MAKE UP FOR // THE ONES WHO ALLEGEDLY CLAIM TO LOVE YOU // NO MORE USE FOR MORAL CODES // NEVER ENOUGH SALT IN OUR WOUNDS // TRACE BACK THEIR BLOOD // STAINS THROUGH THE THICKEST SNOW // WATCH IT ALL BURN DOWN THROUGH THE SAFETY OF YOUR PHONE // NOTHING MORE THAN PRIVILEGE TO BE OUTRAGED INSTEAD OF BEING ASHAMED
4.
YOUR HEART IS RIGID // I’M AN ART EXHIBIT // TELL ME WHAT YOU USED TO FEEL // THERE AIN’T MUCH YOU CAN COUNT ON MY DEAR // EXCEPT FOR A BROKEN HEART // THAT WON’T EVER HEAL // YOU’LL JUST LEARN HOW TO DROWN IT ON A PARK BENCH NEXT TO YOUR FEARS WE’RE SHADOW SHAPES SHAPED BY HEART SHUTTERS // WE KEEP NAILED SHUT ALL THE TIME // SO LET’S DEPART FROM OUR LIVES // GO OWN IN SOMETHING YOU’D CONSIDER STYLE FALL IN BY THE BAR // ’TIL YOU START TO STUTTER // THERE GOES THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE // ONE DRINK AT A TIME
5.
I KNOW THIS TOWN IS SICK OF MY BREATHING // AND I’M SICK OF PRETENDING THAT I DON’T HATE YOU // SPENT AN OUTRAGEOUS AMOUNT OF TIME ON WHITEWASHING MY SMILE // THE COUNTERFEIT IN MY POCKETS INDUCES COLD SWEAT AND LIES, YEAH! MY LACK OF INTEREST IS BEYOND PAST COMPASSION // RIGHTFULLY SICK OF OURSELVES, BECAUSE WE’RE UTTERLY SHAPED // THERE’S THIS TINY LITTLE SOCKET THAT WE’RE PISSING ON STRAIGHT EVERY DAY THIS IS JUST BLATANT IGNORANCE // SHOWING ON MY FACE // RING OUT THE FUCKIN’ BELLS // THE NEXT ROUND IS ON ME // RING ’EM OUT YA! YOU KNOW YOU SHOULD’VE TOLD ME TO FUCK OFF // FOR OH SO MANY TIMES // BECAUSE I’VE NEVER GIVEN UP // NO, I SIMPLY NEVER TRIED AND WE’LL SAY: IF WE ARE THE FUTURE OF DEATH // AND FEAR IS THE HEART OF LOVE // WE ARE THE FUTURE OF DEATH
6.
AND I WOULD’VE COME BACK // WITHIN A HEARTBEAT // IF YOU’D LET ME DOWN EASY // EASIER SAID THAN DONE // AFTER ALL THAT WE COULD’VE BEEN // AND I CAN’T HELP IT, I FEEL FAINT // NO, I CAN’T HELP IT, I FEEL FAINT AND I’VE SEEN DEATH A COUPLE OF TIMES // LAST YEAR ON A RAINY NIGHT IN MID-JULY // WE TOOK A WALK BENEATH THOSE FLICKERING CHRISTMAS LIGHTS // HE ASKED ME HOW YOU HAD BEEN DOING // HOW YOU’VE BEEN HOLDING UP // IT WAS A SHOCK TO ME TO HEAR // THAT YOU HAVEN’T STAYED IN TOUCH // AFTER ALL THOSE YEARS WON’T EVER COME BACK // WITHIN A HEARTBEAT // COME RAIN, COME SHINE // EASIER SAID THAN DONE // TO FORGIVE AND FORGET MORE THAN ONCE // AND I CAN’T HELP IT, I FEEL FAINT // NO, I CAN’T HELP IT, I FEEL FAINT
7.
Mothman 03:13
AND THE SONG OF THE ARBOR GOES: MY HEAD’S ALL COVERED IN MOTHS // ALL MURMURING THROUGH MY EARS // FOR ALL THE THINGS I’VE LOST // I’M GLAD THEY PROVED MY FRAILTY // OLD FEELINGS APPEAR LIKE GHOSTS // WILL NEVER KNOW IF THEY’RE FAKE OR REAL // IF I COULD LEAVE YOU WITH SOMETHING // WELL, I GUESS IN THE END THIS WOULD BE IT HEY HEY // THIS IS A DIFFERENT KIND OF FEAR // THIS IS A DEEPER KIND OF LOSS, MY DEAR NEVER NEEDED YOU FOR ANYTHING // CAUSE YOU’VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE // CURSED YOU FOR OH SO MANY TIMES // CAUSE THERE WAS NO ONE ELSE WHO CARED // THIS BIRCH LOOKED LIKE RELIANCE // WHEN YOU’RE THE LIGHT AT THE BREAK OF DAY // THE LORE OF THE DEEP // THE FRACTION OF A SECOND BEFORE I LEAP HEY HEY // THIS IS A DIFFERENT KIND OF FEAR // THIS IS A DEEPER KIND OF LOSS, MY DEAR // HEY HEY // THIS IS A DIFFERENT KIND OF LIGHT // THIS TIME OF YEAR AND I’M SWORN TO WHOMEVER IT IS // THAT YOU BELIEVE IN: THAT I’VE BEEN COUNTING EVERY RAY // SINCE THE DAY THAT YOU MADE OUR LIVES DISAPPEAR
8.
WELL, FUCK … // I SHOULD’VE STAYED THIRTY OR A GARBAGE BAG ON THE BEACH // SHOULD’VE SCATTERED SOME PAMPHLETS SPREADING SOME WEIRD IDEOLOGIES // SHOULD’VE TAKEN YOU HOSTAGE SO I COULD CAUSE A FUCKIN’ SCENE // SHOULDN’T HAVE STAYED UP THIS LATE ’TIL MY FUCKIN’ QUITE BITTER CREEPS HOLD SWAY OVER ME THIS WORLD WON’T EVER FALL IN LOVE WITH ME // THIS WORLD WON’T EVER FALL IN LOVE WITH ME // THIS WORLD WON’T EVER FALL IN LOVE WITH ANYTHING THAT I’LL EVER FUCKIN’ DO OR SAY // I’M NO PARADE, BUT IF I WAS SHE’D BE THE FUCKIN’ RAIN MAYBE I SHOULD’VE ASKED MYSELF WHY I CAN’T STOP ASKING // “WHY ARE WE ALL SO EMPTY AND SOLIPSISTIC? // EVERYONE: JUST ANOTHER FATHERFUCKIN’ BRICK?” // PAINTED ANIMALS THAT DON’T EXIST // ON THE WALLS OF THE TOWN HALL // TO SEE HOW EASY IT IS // TO PERSUADE THEM THAT I’M A FUCKIN’ GOD // WHEN I COULD’VE JUST SHOVED IT DOWN THEIR THROATS
9.
IS THIS ALL JUST WINDOW DRESSING WITH THE FLOWERS WE HAVE STOLEN? // MIGHT BE THE REASON WHY AT NIGHT I SLEEP WITH ALL THE WINDOWS OPEN // AS WE ARE: // LIGHTING UP LIKE SPARKS // BURNING HARSH, BUT TENDER // REINVENTING THE DARK // FEVER WON’T LAST FOREVER // I’M GLAD I NEVER WONDERED // WHY LIGHTNING NEVER FOLLOWS THUNDER SO GO PUT OUT THE FIRE // IF THEY HAVEN’T DONE IT YET // SORROWS IN MY VEINS // SPILLED ON PAPER WITH REGRET // HOW COME YOU’VE NEVER PONDERED // TO BE A SPARK WHEN IT’S SOMBER? IS THIS ALL JUST WINDOW DRESSING WITH THE FLOWERS WE HAVE STOLEN? // I’M JUST TRYING TO BE A LITTLE LESS WORSE // MIGHT BE THE REASON WHY AT NIGHT I SLEEP WITH ALL THE WINDOWS OPEN // I’M JUST TRYING TO BE A LITTLE LESS WORSE ALL OF THE TIME SO, YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU’RE WORRIED // DON’T YOU KNOW THAT I’VE ALWAYS BEEN? // DRUNKEN LIES AND TIRED HEARTS // MAKE SO MUCH FUCKIN’ SENSE // I’M GLAD I NEVER WONDERED // WHY LIGHTNING NEVER FOLLOWS THUNDER HOW COME YOU’VE NEVER PONDERED // TO BE A SPARK WHEN IT’S SOMBER? // PLEASE DON’T WAIT NO LONGER // I WANNA LIVE THROUGHOUT THIS SUMMER
10.
Sour Milk 04:28
I’VE BEEN DIGGING UP GRAVES // YOU’VE BEEN QUIET FOR A WHILE // MAYBE I’LL START SMOKING TO SEE IF IT FORMS A SILHOUETTE OF YOUR SMILE // AND I’LL TAKE TO ACCOUNT // THIS CONJECTURE OF HOPE // BUT I’VE SPLIT MY SPINE, GOT MY GRANDPA’S HEART // SO RELIEVING JUST TO SIGH THOSE HORRENDOUS MEMORIES // LIKE A TASTE OF SOUR MILK // TRAPPED IN OUR ABSENCE WHILE KNOWING THAT WE MUST DO OUR TIME JUST GET RID OF MY BONES // ONLY THE BEST MEDICINE // NOTHING YOU KNOW // CAN BE FOUND BENEATH I’VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT MY PAST LIVES // WHILE MANEUVERING DOWN THIS MOUNTAINSIDE // DO YOU HAVE GOT MORE LOVE TO GIVE? // DID YOU EVER HAVE ANY MORE LOVE TO GIVE AT ALL? JUST GET RID OF MY BONES // ONLY THE BEST MEDICINE // NOTHING YOU KNOW // CAN BE FOUND BENEATH // THIS BOX SHAPED LIKE … WELL, YOU KNOW // MY SEDATIVE, MY HEROINE // EVERYTHING YOU KNOW // CAN BE FOUND BENEATH // WHATEVER IT IS YOU THINK YOU FOUND IN ME WHATEVER IT IS YOU THINK YOU FOUND IN ME // IS BASED ON INSECURITY // THESE STORIES I KNOW, I WON’T EVER TELL, CAUSE THEY ALWAYS TAKE A PART OF // EVERY HEART THE SWAYS // ALL THOSE THUNDEROUS WAVES // THE LIVES WE LOSE AT OUR FINGERTIPS // WHILE WE’RE WORLDS APART // WE’RE STILL SHARING SCARS // CAUSE THE REGRETS WE HAVE ARE A PROFOUND ART
11.
Silencer 04:37
FULL OF FAILURES // BEATEN BLACK AND BLUE // LATE SUMMER SKIES DON’T ALWAYS SERVE A CURE // BUT I’M FINE WITH IT JUST SO YOU KNOW // MY APARTMENT’S TOO QUIET WHEN MY THOUGHTS ARE ON THEIR OWN // WE’RE ON OUR OWN I’VE GOT A LITTLE BLACK BOOK // THAT SAYS “GOODBYE.” // AND I NOTICED THAT WE STAYED ALIVE EVER SINCE WE GAVE UP TRYING // “IS IT RAINING WHERE YOU’RE AT?” // SHE ASKED // “OR HAVE I BEEN MISTAKEN THIS PLACE WITH THE INSIDE OF YOUR HEAD?” SOLITARY // IMPEACH OUR COMMON GROUND // SUPERIOR // RENOUNCE ALL THAT WE KNOW // FULL OF TERROR // AND FRAGILE HOPES // ’TIL IT’S OVER // IT AIN’T OVER WITH MEADOWS IN OUR EYES // AND TEMPEST IN OUR HEARTS // DO YOU THINK THAT MAYBE WE CAN START THIS THING FROM NEW?

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A Different Kind Of Light was produced and recorded in 2022 by Peter Lagoda hat Notaufnahme Studios in Muenster.
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Released physically via MY RUIN
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released March 31, 2023

ALL SONGS WRITTEN AND PERFORMED BY SWAN SONGS.
ALL LYRICS BY BENNY.
RECORDED, MIXED AND MASTERED BY PETER LAGODA.

COVER PHOTO BY GIDEON ROTHMANN.
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ARTWORK AND LAYOUT BY CHRIS ZYLLA.

SWAN SONGS IS:
BENNY - WORDS & CHORDS
STINA - LOW TUNES & WORDS
JULS - NOISE & MELODIES
LAURENZ - POTS & LIDS
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